A long- long time has passed since my last post. A lot of things happened...
I moved back home in april and continued my driving classes. It was really hard and I felt most of the time that I'm gonna fail, I can't do it, meanwhile my family, friends and my love also told me it's bullshit, I am capable of doing this. And guess what? Finally I did it! And this is one of those moments when I realize I am good at something. The day of my exam meant a lot to me. In the last 9-10 years I didn't give a shit about driving or having a car but things have changed and among other things I changed too.
Yes, that's right! I'm not the same person anymore. I guess by time I just lost many of my old characteristics, habits, hobbies and friends, as well.
Right now I cannot decide wether it's good or bad but I try to live with it anyway.
The funny part though is that I haven't realized most of these things until now.
It just happened at the weekend when I met Zsófi after a long period of time and we had a really nice talk about everything. She made me realize many thing, while I was listening to her life I just discovered the same feelings about mine.
The point is I tried to live the same life as 1-2 or 3 years ago and didn't accept the fact that I can't. I was very confused and sad but finally I can see the things clearly.
I got older and changed a lot, too. I lost some friends (but to tell the truth I believe they were never really my friends just some people to hang out with) and the things I liked to do before haven't satisfy me anymore.
A quick example, although I always went to concerts for the music not for the company, I started to feel alone there, so I just stopped going. Which doesn't mean that I don't like music and concerts anymore. It's just that my priorities have changed.
At present if I have to choose between going out and drink or stay in and watch a movie or read a book I pick the second one without any hesitation.
Honestly, this is the only thing I do now, stay in, read, watch movies, study languages and maybe look for a job as I'm unemployed for almost 3 months now. Though it was mainly my decision, in april I was driving, in may I spent my time with Georgi, visiting the touristic spots in Budapest, Győr and Balaton.
And here I am now, in June, 2 weeks passed since I finished my driving license, I cannot find a job in Hungary, I have to wait 2 more months to go back to Lanzarote. So I'm at home, sleeping until 11, watching movies, reading as much as I can, and do sports.
Yes, I almost forgot about it, which is one of the most important part of my day, doing sports. Before I couldn't imagine myself doing sports, but lately this is the thing which makes me the happiest, so everyday at least 1 hour I spend with exersises, cycling, etc.
So this is my new life, free of bustle, a cleared-out adult- like life.
