Seriously, overall it was a pretty boring summer.
It needed a shake but not like this.
I am alone but completely alone now. He doesnt speak to me anymore and Im really really sad and upset.
I miss talking to him so much and feeling his presence eventhough he is thousands of miles away from me. But still at least we were speaking everyday. And now Im empty and cannot fill my life with anything else.
Everything seems boring and useless to me.
I even bought a packet of cigarettes,this is the only thing that helps to me now.
How desperate I am, oh God.
But its all my fucking fault!!!
