Why is it still better being alone?

Some facts about being alone is not that terrible.
I decided to share these things because I'm fed up with guys who think that they are much better than us, who don't appreciate us at all, and who just simply despise us.

First of all, if you are curious, I can tell you, I'm writing this post because there is one guy in particular, who makes me really angry at the moment.

Actually this guy made me think about myself a lot lately. So I started to make lists in my head , lists about my qualities, my weak points, my relationships with guys, friends and family members.

He asked me about my previous relationships. Firstly, I think what happened in the past, stays in the past and a guy who just appears in my life, doesn't have to know tini tiny details about my earlier love life, because it's simply not his business. But okay, if he is prying maybe I can share some details with him but this means that I completely trust in him and expect the same from his side, too.
Of course this is not the case, he distorts everything I say.

And the funny thing is that this guy really believes that we are a couple now, that we are together and we will get married, have children, and happily ever after. But no way!

What do guys thing? Really?!

I don't want a relationship with a guy like this. I'd rather be alone than in a relationship where the other person doesn't appreciate me.
People who really know me (my family and my best friends) know that I have a really low self-esteem thanks to our 21st century's education sytem what doesn't help you to find yourself instead it bullies you. And it's not just the system but the people in it, many teachers and even the children are so cruel sometimes.

Anyway, after leaving the education system I tried to recuperate my lost personality.
But if one thing doesn't destroy you anymore, life gives you others to make you suffer, like guys and relationships.

I mean, why do we have to suffer that much from guys? We should live in happy relationships, have a lot of fun,etc. after all, this is our youth, if we don't enjoy every moment of it, we will regret it later.
But sometimes guys just make it so much more difficult.

A girl has to break to be in a relationship. And today I decided that I won't do it anymore. And why is that? Because I'm 26, I had several disfunctional relationship, I lost myself so many times, that I don't want to do it anymore, just because being alone is scary. Sure it can be frightening sometimes, but have to find the sunny part of it. Actually there are several advantages:

- I can do whatever I want, I mean, whatever, really
- I don't have to care about what others think
- I can devide my time and also can devote time to things I really want to do
- Do sports just because you feel much better after a healthy training
- Go to bed and wake up when you want to
- Sleep in big panties if you feel like it
- Spend a lot of time with your friends
- Plan your future and don't give up something just because of a relationship
- You can travel a lot
- Going out without a judgemental look from your boyfriend
- Listen to all kind of music you like
- Read a lot of books
- Have more spare time
- Which is the most important of all: don't waste any of your time to a guy who doesn't worth it!

And this is the bottom line, that being alone is not a terrible thing after all. You can devote your time to things which really matter to you.
And of course if you find the perfect guy this list won't exist anymore because that guy will give you space, will accept you the way you are and won't make you sad or dissappointed. And until, just try to enjoy yourself and your freedom because later it won't come back, either.